Every person has that one phase in his/her life where they end up becoming the person they never even dreamt they'd be. They either realise that transformation, or they don't- there is no in between. This isn't puberty or maturity. No. It's something different. Something that I feel I've experienced already. Something that I can't really find an existing word to describe. Although I know that it has to have some name.
I used to be this typical nerd you'd find at any school. The girl who preferred to sit in the first bench, the girl who faked ear problems (yes, I have done that) to escape sitting in the last rows owing to her height. I was that girl who would refuse hanging out with her friends because she wanted to study for a simple test that had no significance in altering her final grades. I was every teacher's pet. And I used to pride myself over that. But pet now feels, umm, ouch. I'd rather be a favourite, and not a pet. Believe me, there's a huge difference between the two.
And because I just stated that, a Teachers' Pet isn't bad, but the title leads to a kind of isolation. But anyone can be a favourite. Even the most hated person in the class can be a favourite. One of my classmates, who was disliked by many in our class, was a favourite, and that gave him a number of companions, which he would've otherwise not got. See, the two don't differ in what they mean. What makes them same but entirely different is the way fellow students, atleast in my observation, perceive them.
Coming back. I was a nerd. I'd bunk Games periods to study what I had studied a 100 times. I would be disappointed if I scored 95/100 when I could score a centum. And all this was only 3 years ago. When I entered the ninth grade, something happened to me. I transformed from a nerd, to what I would call, a semi-nerd. I still bunked Games, and some of my friends hated me for that. But I actually starting mingling with something other than my textbooks. I discovered friends.
Tenth grade was when I realised my passion for English. And that made me accept opportunities, instead of chucking them into a corner to spend time with my big fat textbooks. I was luckily in a school that gave me a lot of chances to discover my inner self. My semi-nerd attitude slowly began fading. I started transforming into the person I never thought I'd be.
And today, I stand here, as a completely new person. I blabber nonsense when I'm bored, and love sitting in the last bench. From writing twice a week, to laughing all day long, I've become a completely new person on the whole. My nerdy character almost came back to me, but I kicked it away. I don't like that anymore.
I've transformed.
To the person I never thought I'd be.
And if you haven't, you will too.
If not today, you will, someday.
I used to be this typical nerd you'd find at any school. The girl who preferred to sit in the first bench, the girl who faked ear problems (yes, I have done that) to escape sitting in the last rows owing to her height. I was that girl who would refuse hanging out with her friends because she wanted to study for a simple test that had no significance in altering her final grades. I was every teacher's pet. And I used to pride myself over that. But pet now feels, umm, ouch. I'd rather be a favourite, and not a pet. Believe me, there's a huge difference between the two.And because I just stated that, a Teachers' Pet isn't bad, but the title leads to a kind of isolation. But anyone can be a favourite. Even the most hated person in the class can be a favourite. One of my classmates, who was disliked by many in our class, was a favourite, and that gave him a number of companions, which he would've otherwise not got. See, the two don't differ in what they mean. What makes them same but entirely different is the way fellow students, atleast in my observation, perceive them.
Coming back. I was a nerd. I'd bunk Games periods to study what I had studied a 100 times. I would be disappointed if I scored 95/100 when I could score a centum. And all this was only 3 years ago. When I entered the ninth grade, something happened to me. I transformed from a nerd, to what I would call, a semi-nerd. I still bunked Games, and some of my friends hated me for that. But I actually starting mingling with something other than my textbooks. I discovered friends.
Tenth grade was when I realised my passion for English. And that made me accept opportunities, instead of chucking them into a corner to spend time with my big fat textbooks. I was luckily in a school that gave me a lot of chances to discover my inner self. My semi-nerd attitude slowly began fading. I started transforming into the person I never thought I'd be.
And today, I stand here, as a completely new person. I blabber nonsense when I'm bored, and love sitting in the last bench. From writing twice a week, to laughing all day long, I've become a completely new person on the whole. My nerdy character almost came back to me, but I kicked it away. I don't like that anymore.
I've transformed.
To the person I never thought I'd be.
And if you haven't, you will too.
If not today, you will, someday.
