Saturday 2 July 2016

Bliss.

You know what, once you graduate from high school, you face a lot of problems. And the number one problem, as per my observation, is to get into a school/college where your friend gets into. And guess what? I don't really appreciate that. No offence, but I don't really think it's nice to have your friend beside you in every single aspect of your life. You know why?
Here's my experience. I just moved into a new school, and it's awesome. But I guess what makes it awesome-er is the fact that I'm the only one from my old school who is here. To make it simpler, I'm a complete stranger here. Of course, I used to feel lonely and stuff, and there was even a time within this one month of school when I almost broke down. But at this point of time, I'm really glad that I didn't choose a school that my friends are presently going to. If you're one of my friends reading this, lemme tell you- I still love you, I really do. Don't mistake these lines as me beginning to hate you guys or something :P
So yea, coming to a school where I was a complete stranger was awesome. And here's why.
You know, I am an extremely shy person. I'm like that person who defies all laws of shyness. I find it so hard to talk with people I don't know, and some people start laughing at me when I say I wanna pursue a career as a talk-show host or something.
The long and short of this is that I cannot talk when I have absolutely no idea about the people around me. When I came here, it was all up to me to make a name for myself. No teachers knew me, and it was up to me to tell people who I was. And listen, it wasn't easy. Not at all.
I literally had to search for opportunities to make myself known; usually, those opportunities would come to me. I love English. Having said that, I used my passion to get a recognition. Reading out my poem in class actually helped, and how! I don't really want to specify about how exactly I became 'She! Oh, I know her!' from 'She? I don't know her.', that'd be irrelevant. But that transition makes me feel so damn good! Just yesterday, when I finally made friends after about a month, I was on cloud nine. Everybody I talk to, including my diary, have been 'notified' that I made friends all on my own. And that feels so amazing!!
But the main reason I'm glad of this achievement of mine would be this. I did it all by myself. Had I been somewhere where my school friends were, I'm 100% sure that I would've just hung behind them, waiting to be noticed. I would've hung out with the same old people, talked with the same old pals, and what not. I would have become 'Who's she?' from 'Oh, She.' And that transition would've been horrendous.
Oh! I shouldn't be mumbling about these right now. People who didn't even know I existed actually know me, and that's all because of who I am, and not what marks I've scored. And dang! That feels so freaking awesome!!